Friday Moments..

ok, ok, i won't front.. it's been much harder to concentrate on WBB (women's bball) w/ my FAM not playing.. i've had to give myself a bit of a breather from what was THE most difficult season i've had w/ the WNBA.. some of it had to do w/ personal things, some had to do w/ players, some w/ the teams, some w/ the league.. but when you added it all up, it didn't go the way that i wanted, nor expected, it to go.. so, for me, i've needed a break..

i told Kesh the other day that i had to stay away so that i didn't bring negative energy around.. it was nothing against anyone, just me.. i don't hide things that well.. i mean i do, but not from my FAM.. Meek will look at me and be on some "whatever Q., i know something is up, but ok, i'll let you be".. and all i'll be able to do is smile.. the same way that i KNOW when things aren't well w/ her.. that's the management bond that i love.. that's something no one can take from me, and something that players can express to others..

i had to look in the mirror on a lot of things.. the high expectations.. the "not taking no for an answer".. the "man, i can make this happen".. but the fact is, i didn't.. i tried.. my FAM tried.. my Fuzion team tried.. even when we did everything in our power to ensure success, we were let down by others that we relied on and paid to fulfill the job.. it was another eye opener for me, because at the end of the day, it was all on me/Fuzion.. i got worn down.. being 1 man, it's not enough.. the business side of FAM WBB is really just 1 1/2 ppl.. the money isn't there to commit to a full team.. yes, i use all of Fuzion to make things happen, but the resources will bankrupt me, because there just is not much (if any) money in professional WBB.. it's the sad reality.. but it's not a reality that i'm going to bow down to.. it's one that i will take additional time to figure out.. it has to work.. the future is too bright for it not to.. we just have to find a way to work inside and outside of the "system".. trust me, you don't want to walk in these shoes..

so today was truly based on 2 immediate events, and a future event.. probably spent about 3 hours on them.. that's it.. which is a step in the right direction.. cuz during the season it was like a 12 hour job.. no lie.. but you think i'm scared? think again.. we'll figure this out and get it right.. WAY too many ppl counting on me making it happen.. i'm not one to disappoint.. i'm just sayin'..

i - Q..